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True Confessions of a God Killer
A Postmodern Pilgrim's Progress

Emily Hedrick

Summary: True Confessions of a God Killer is an unusual and daring allegory inspired by a young woman’s journey through the need to kill the God she knew to make space for a God beyond the cherished notions through which she and many of us imprison God.

"An absorbing tale of spiritual awakening, True Confessions of a God Killer explores the arduous, sometimes perilous, journey toward self-knowledge that is intimately linked with God-knowledge. Not for the timid or faint of heart, this tale lures the reader off safe paths into utter darkness and then toward tantalizing glimpses of healing light. An unforgettably honest and courageous story." —Marlene Kropf, William B. Oglesby, Jr. Professor of Pastoral Theology, The Graduate Theological Foundation; Professor Emerita of Spiritual Formation and Worship, Anabaptist Mennonite Biblical Seminary

"The invented gods of creeds and institutions that have been handed down need to be killed in order for the real God of mystery and community to emerge. Hedrick challenges the reader to follow a fascinating and intense inward struggle to find and experience this God. She displays unusual depth and understanding as she explores the inner world in this brilliant book." —Don Clymer teaches Spanish and leads cross-cultural seminars for Eastern Mennonite University

"With a winning combination of courage, wit, and depth, Hedrick’s suspenseful narrative traces the storyteller’s struggles with faith. No conventional tale, True Confessions reaches one culmination in the storyteller’s ‘killing God’—but there is much more to come in this fresh, ingenious, sometimes dazzling journey away from stifling conventionality and toward the embrace of holy mystery." —Jeff Gundy, author of Songs from an Empty Cage; Professor of English, Bluffton University

Quote: “But to my utter horror, I discovered that the coughing had nothing to do with God being sick and everything to do with God being strangled! Every time the Man of God paused in his speaking, I watched God try to address the group, but the Man of God grabbed him at the throat, suffocating him in an effort to keep him silent while the chains around God’s hands kept him from being able to fight back.” —from Chapter 2

Market: All readers drawn to an unusual and daring allegory inspired by a young woman’s journey to kill a God who was too small to make space for a God much larger.

Shelving: Fiction; Allegory; Religion—Christianity, Anabaptist-related; BISAC: Fiction—religious

The Author: Emily Hedrick grew up in southeastern Pennsylvania and received her B.A. in Music and Bible and Religion from Goshen College. She is now a Wake Forest University School of Divinity graduate student. While spending the summer after her sophomore year in college working in the Iona Abbey kitchen off the coast of Scotland, she committed some of her spiritual journey to paper. Taking her childhood love of Pilgrim's Progress as inspiration led her to transmute her writings into True Confessions of a God Killer.

Publisher: Cascadia Publishing House LLC
Imprint: DreamSeeker Books
Copublisher: None
Publication date: October 31, 2014
Approximate Pages: 156
Tentative Format: 5.5 x 8.5" trade paper
Prices: $15.95 US/Can. ISBN 13:  978-1-931038-98-0; ISBN 10: 1-931038-98-8

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