KINGSVIEW
THE TRIP TO WALMART
Michael A. King
To this day,
notwithstanding the heresies I am about
to write, I flinch from the
Walmartization of America and
increasingly the world (now that Walmart
is the largest company in it). Let no one
construe the story I am about to tell as
indicating otherwise. But somehow I just
keep getting older and life just keeps
getting more complicated, and so I am
going to tell a tale in which ideals
clash with realities in ways I have yet
to disentangle.
So I
wont try, except to say just
quickly here, then let the story speak
for itself, that the trip to Walmart did
make me think this: Maybe we must live
life as it is, in all its messy grandeur,
and not only life as we think it should
be, and accept that one of lifes
great challenges is how to negotiate
between what is and what could be.
The
Walmart saga begins in the early 1990s. I
had resigned several years earlier as
pastor of Germantown Mennonite Church in
Philadelphia but our family continued to
live nearby. We then commuted from our
urban setting to church involvements at
Salford Mennonite Church in the
Harleysville area of southeastern
Pennsylvania. As urban dwellers we loved
the city but were also quite taken with
the contrasting beauty of
Harleysvilles bucolic, rolling
pastures and woodlots. Eventually we
settled into them, in a home a few
minutes from the Salford congregation.
We then
watched in horror as thousands more
people had the same idea, turning our
area into yet one more of those
fast-growing communities seemingly
hell-bent on replacing pristine land with
developments whose countrified names like
Fox Trot, Creekside, Rolling Farms were
about all that remained of the reality
they replaced.
Then
came the humdinger. Right there on what
had been the farm of the Kulps, members
of our very own congregation, Walmart
planned to build one of its temples to
American consumerism. Our family fumed
and fulminated about the travesty and
would have sworn, if Mennonites swore.
But we dont swear, since Jesus told
us to let our yea be yea and our nay be
nay, so we just very very passionately
affirmed that we would never ever darken
the doors of that den of iniquity except
maybe to take in some whips and drive out
the moneychangers at the cash registers.
Then
groundbreaking came and day by day, with
grief and anger, we watched the Walmart
walls go up. We dreaded the day when its
doors would open and the hungry hordes
would stampede in, trampling over all the
local businesses about to be destroyed,
as so many have been, when Walmart sucked
all their customers into its slobbering
maw.
Finally
came the day of infamy for the
Harleysville area. I forget whether our
collapse came that day or a few days
later, but it came so quickly as to give
no evidence at all that we did in fact
have functional Walmart antibodies.
I
remember yet, with a shiver, the look on
our family members faces as we saw
for the first time, right there in our
backyard on this former Mennonite farm,
the Walmart smiley faces and heard the
defining words of our era, Welcome
to Walmart. The sad truth is this:
What was on our faces was something
almost like awe combined with whatever
crumpling effect a face gives off when
values thought to be for life prove to be
about as strong as toilet paper. We liked
Walmart and we were horrified to realize
this. That was what our faces were trying
to register.
I could
go on, detail upon detail, to tell of how
for weeks or maybe even months we managed
at least to say we disagreed with our
behavior as we indulged in it, but why
belabor the sordid truth? The fact is, in
no time at all we were shopping at
Walmart constantly, and weve never
quit.
Then came last
week the trip to Walmart that
stirred this column into being. I had had
a rotten few weeks because I had changed
computers several times and spent day
after day configuring computers while
work piled up. Oh, computers, e-mail,
Internet, speeding everything up, taking
away from us the gentle pacing of life
like it was lived on the Kulp farm before
Walmart came. . . .
But
thats another story, except to say
that amid computer woes (Im writing
on my new computer, which now every time
I boot up flashes a warning that the hard
disk is going to crash any minute, but I
dont have enough minutes to worry
about it until it happens), I had done an
even worse job than usual of figuring out
how to get everything done and still find
enough peace in my soul at the end of the
day to cherish my family. I felt a
constant undercurrent of sadness at how
quickly all my daughters were growing up,
next one headed to college in months, and
how often I wasnt sharing the
journey with them.
But one
evening the spell of busyness, for
reasons Im not entirely clear
about, lifted. For a few shining hours I
didnt care about all that was not
getting done. Meanwhile Katie was getting
this and that ready for her big high
school senior prom and Kristy, home from
college, was enjoying the sisterhood of
helping her get ready. In the midst of
their brainstorming, they decided mostly
on a lark to head off to Walmart to get
some little something. Sensing I was
feeling wild, they asked, Dad, do
you want to go with us? I decided
to just go crazy, live it up, and head
off with them.
So,
practically giggling with the giddiness
of it all, I fear, we raced out to
Katies car, since this was really
her trip and she wanted to be the driver
both literally and symbolically. My dear
daughters put me in the back seat, where
Ive rarely been when with them.
They
put some kind of really loud teenage-type
music on, that stuff with none of the
haunting beauty to it that music had
before computers and Walmart, and after
all the times Ive told her about
how shes going to kill herself
doing it, Katie went down our country
road (there is still a little
country behind Walmart and between the
developments) at I dont know how
many miles over the speed limit. But I
was in the back seat and she was in
charge, so after protesting and getting
back her claim that it really was no
faster than Id be driving, which
was too true, I shut up.
And I
noticed a lot of things I hope I never
forget. I noticed what it felt like to be
in a car (remember the world when there
were just horses on farms that are now
Walmart?) in the backseat while the wind
on that late spring day blew back my
daughters hair to reveal the
grinning faces of these two whose diapers
I had changed (a reminder they never
appreciate) as we flew on our wild trip.
Right in the
middle of it all the world outside or at
least inside me twisted on its axis and I
caught my breath, because it was just as
clear as it had ever been to me that we
were in a holy moment. If I could just
stay within it, I was being given a gift
of gifts, the blessing of for those few
moments truly seeing my daughters and the
entire world as they and I were intended
to be but so rarely are.
Perhaps
partly because it truly is majestic and
mystical and also partly just because
its different to my eyes and so not
yet spoiled by taken-for-grantedness, the
landscapes of the American West take my
breath away. Often in humdrum moments my
mind wanders to the sere highlands of
Nevada; the wild-flower carpets once
glimpsed in the Anza-Borrego wildlands of
southern California; the lonesome
delights of old Route 66 on the way to
Kingman, Arizona, from which sometimes
can be spied far off in the distance,
across Native American tribal land, hints
of this strange high ledge, and if you
were to drive toward it some 20 or 30
miles more you would realize it was the
North Rim of the Grand Canyon.
There
on that trip to Walmart, with the
landscape of ordinary old Morwood Road
flashing by in the cool air under the
fading twilight sun, with Katie laughing
at the wheel and Kristy chattering beside
her, the world lurched and the feeling of
being in the West leaped right into my
heart here in the humdrum East. I could
see that day-to-day world as if for the
very first pristine time, and it was
lovely beyond even the words Im
trying to draw on to describe it.
Then we
arrived at Walmart, there on top of the
old Kulp farm, and we all wondered aloud
again at this delight we were deriving
from a little trip to bad Walmart, and we
didnt know what to do, because we
hate Walmart but we love it. So we just
lived on in a strange world where things
often dont hang together, where an
awful lot goes wrong, where if we pave
over too many more farms what will be
left, and we thrilled to the joy of just
being alive with each other in the mess.
Michael
A. King, Telford, Pennsylvania, is
pastor, Spring Mount (Pa.) Mennonite
Church; and editor, DreamSeeker
Magazine.
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